A never-ending story

and they say.. forget bout it.

2012-02-01T15:02:00.003Z

Sometimes, things wont go the way you wanted or expected it to be.

Maybe i am being optimistic, or maybe, i am just plain being unwilling to be defeated.

Things i find it challenging, are things that makes me buckle up and wanting to prove that i can handle it. :P

but for relationships.. i am a little helpless. not going to mention what happen, but people around you.. even yourself, tends to change. whether its minor or major changes, the outcome may not be what you expected it to be..

at the end of the day.. there is only one thing you can do.. deal with it.

Peer pressure!

2012-01-31T00:08:00.003Z

I am sure everyone went through this before.. and I AM CURRENTLY experiencing it now.

Not my first time anyway, but peer pressure is seriously.. seriously something that should not be underestimated.

The way it forces you to catch up with the others and push you harder just so you are able to cope..

the pressure on your shoulder that you want to be as good as others.. thats.. peer pressure.

I am glad though, in a way. Not that i enjoy being tortured, but it forces me.. to an extend where i wanted to be better. I wanted too.. achieve something that will leave me no regrets..

so here comes another few weeks of endless night!

signing off!

Love,

qian

love letter

2012-01-29T01:51:00.002Z

fall in love with this song again..<3

i wonder..

2012-01-27T21:39:00.003Z

有时候，人会在道路上遗忘了自己。

我忘了，当初的我去了哪里。

或许，是长大了，或许是看透了。

无法不去接受这样的安排。人，总会长大。

just so you know.

2012-01-25T17:38:00.001Z

很偶尔的，你还会找我，联系我，你的突然出现，还是会挑拨我的心弦。只是，我也学会对你伪装了，不冷不热，不咸不淡，笑得没心没肺，也不会再流那廉价的眼泪了。然后听你轻轻地说：“你变了。” 是的，过去的都已经过去了。

不要再给我一些突如其来的关心。不是每一次我都会觉得受宠若惊。哪一回你的出现，不是给我一身伤痕。我真的真的，消受不起了。我又不傻，我不会一直犯贱。好了伤疤忘了疼的事，我不会一直做，只因是你……现在，我不想再卑微自己。如果不爱，请离开，越远越好。我就不信，我还不能找到一个人，替代你。

credits to ; 十二星座宝宝

it just wrote out what i always wanted to say.

just so you know.

2012-01-25T17:38:00.000Z

credits to ; 十二星座宝宝

it just wrote out what i always wanted to say.

Greeting, with love.

2012-01-18T18:21:00.005Z

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

How i wish now i am at home as well.. busy preparing for new year, even though waking up early in the morning is something i always hate.. but now. i wish i can do it as well. .

I want to shop for new year as well, wanted to eat all kinds of new year cookie. Who cares about getting fat now. Satisfactions for my cravings are much much more important. :)

Watch this video this afternoon and i wanted to share it here as well!

Be grateful for what you have, treasure every moment you can with your family, for you never know, when will you lost them.

this video by jay is not bad as well

Always be grateful with what you have,

I am still learning.

with love,

qian

-slack-

2012-01-15T22:55:00.003Z

Been slacking alot lately, trying to get my mind and heart back since i return to glasgow..

going back to Malaysia was awesome.. at least i have nothing to worry about.

Back here. there are tonnes of things piling up and i dont seem to be ready for it.

Been trying to run away from it. Trying not to feel the stress. I guess.. i am kinda breaking down now?

Trying to get my mind working. running again. to be all ready for my final year. but i am not. I AM NOT READY.

what am i suppose to do? :( so lost.

particularly like this photo. no idea why.

till then

love.

qian

welcome 2012!

2012-01-06T07:41:00.003Z

My first post in 2012! Hope its not too late to write my new year resolution now.

i know its like the first week of January already, but who cares, its better than never right?

Looking back 2011, its complicated.

It wasn't entirely a year that brings happiness, my family, been through a lot of tough moments this year.

Its a year filled with different kind of experience as well.

From the beginning of 2011, i would say it brought my family pain, and heartache. 2011 started with a pain. Having to say goodbye, to live and death.

Moving into the middle of 2011, there were happy and sad things happening.

I celebrated my 21st birthday, with friends and family, and receives surprises for my birthday from my special someone,

and in education wise, i have completed the first section of my academic and was ready to proceed to the second phase, and so, i am off to glasgow.

Leaving home for so long was indeed an experience. It was an opportunity for me to train myself to be independent. It was not easy, trying to adapt a different culture, trying to overcome home sick and trying to cope with the super hectic summer course. I was glad, i got over it. Moreover, first time in my life, i felt how special was it to be a student exempted from exam. Not trying to show off or anything, this achievement boost my confident a little telling me that if i am willing to try, i can get what i want.

Then, there was the breakup. Not to say unexpected, but its more like moving to that point where it leads to this ending. Not gonna talk much about this.

And then, there was my summer trip. Backpack and tour Italy. It was certainly something new. To live in hostel, to share rooms with guys, to walk for hours under the hot sun, enjoyed the scenery of Capri, Florence and etc. boy oh boy, it was certainly awesome.

Moving to the end of 2011, the excitement have not come to an end. It was my first winter, and i was pretty jakun about it. It was fun sliding down the slope of the hill filled with thick snow, it was fun having snow covering all over you. Sadly, we are not having a white xmas due to global warming. But, i get to enjoy meteor! :) i guess it kinda compensate? We can never be to greedy and have everything we want right?

It was definitely a lifetime experience, lying on the grass waiting for meteor during winter, IT WAS ONLY 2 DEGREES! I could never forget this.

And last but not least, spend my xmas and new year back at HOME! Special thanks to my parents, for pampering me with love and care. Although it was a pretty quiet xmas and new year, i certainly have no regret.

Moving into 2012, I only have one thing in my mind. Something i like to achieve.

To work harder on my academic and to be a better person.

With love,

qian

back to blogging.

2011-12-15T17:58:00.003Z

i realise i dont blog as much as i use to, not like i blog alot, but the oomph of blogging no longer exist,

although there are many nights i have the urge to blog, it never really force me to sit down and blog like how i am doing now.. probably because i am just plain lazy.

semester 7 ends in a flash, it was indeed, a honeymoon semester, as compared to the other super duper hectic sem, i am practically growing mould all over me. I have assignments to do, some research lab to attend, and one great news, i get to go home.

Surprisingly, i am away from home for half a year now. I dont think i have change much, but more like, i know myself more, in a way i realise how well protected i was, by my parents, how spoilt i was, by my parents, i am glad enough to say, i am lucky. I may not be the richest person on earth, my family may have or is still going through some up and down, but at the very end, its just a process of growing, a process making me a stronger person. I am proud, to have walk till this far, and will, certainly walk on.

What have i done after coming back from the italy trip?

I finally got the chance to go sheffield and meet up with chee sing. god knows how much i enjoy the short holiday. So much to catch up, so many things to say, it certainly feels good.

Besides more shopping, it was practically a food trip. chee sing was kind enough to tour me around sheffield and bring me for good food. So, if you check the album on facebook, it is mostly about food, oh and scenery as well1

Another awesome experience i gained at the very last day of sem was to enjoy meteor strikes with a bunch of bestie. S hivering from the coldness brought by winter, lying on the ground, , gazing upon the stars, waiting patiently for the meteors, and squealed so loudly like some jakuns when we saw one, it was certainly a memorable experience. one sad thing is that i failed to capture an image of it. my camera sucks at night -.-

all and all :)

i will be home soon!

<3

qian

a little statement

2011-11-29T21:37:00.003Z

saw this when i was reading some novel ..

something that i always wanted to say, during the past..

很多时候，其实女人在乎的不是金钱。

而是男人在乎的心意。就像很多女人会问心爱的男人要礼物一样，

她们也不过是想通过这样一个小小的举动，享受着被男人娇宠着的感觉而已，

只是很多时候，男人都不懂，反而把这视为拜金。

曾经，我也有过这样的幻想。

想被人娇宠着。

可惜，你永远不懂。

在你眼里，我成了拜金女郎。

现在，说什么都太迟了。

it just happen to be.

2011-11-10T16:49:00.003Z

Sometimes, small little things can make a person smile easily.

Its just that easy.

By winning 6 credits from mall world makes me feel like i am on the tip top of the world.

Its my lucky day :)

i hope its yours too!

signing off,

qian with a huge grin on her face !

2011-11-08T13:44:00.003Z

“就我以为你快回家，赶着煮饭，就不小心弄到而已”。

“今天不能和你聊天，还有明天吗”

“没什么，就习惯了。"

没和你说到话，就心不在焉“

好想念妈，好想念家。

好想扑到在她怀里，好想念爸为我挡风挡雨。

我真的好想家。

我真是个被爱宠坏的小孩。

在他们面前，我总像个小孩。

无论长几岁了，几年长了，你，仍然是他们的心肝宝贝。

就因为这浓浓的爱。

我更加不敢辜负。

但说真的，我凭什么？

真的，努力后，会真的有彩虹吗？

这是我一直以来的信念。

一直以为，只要我更努力，我一定能追上别人的脚步。

但原来，无论你怎么追，还是有距离的。

一段你无法跨越的距离。

我，真的很自卑。

2011-11-08T00:08:00.002Z

为所有让你快乐的事而笑吧！

人生，其实很短暂。

这是我第五个月，离开家五个月了。

老实说，对这现在的我，慢慢更加独立的我，有些些的满意。

没想过吧？没离开过家里的我。安然无恙的进入了人生第一个秋天。就快，冬天就要来临了。

望着时间在倒数，我很庆幸，我可以回家。

其实，我有那么一点点喜欢上这里。

冰冰冷冷的。其实，挺舒服。

有那么一些些的后悔，如果我在忍耐多几个月，其实，我就回家了。何必急于一时。

但，能回家，对我而言，是最幸福的事。

你们，也同意吧？

I am so inlove!

2011-11-07T22:07:00.002Z

With this bag design...

what are you thinking?

HAHHAA.

OMG. this is SO SO SO PRETTY!

sigh.

i wish it can fall down from the sky.

time to save money! i want this!

till then,

qian

2011-11-07T01:41:00.003Z

我似乎，没有放纵的理由。

每做一件事情，有舍有得。

我怎么还学不会呢？

好想好想要。又如何？

莫紫千。怎么来了趟英国。你就忘了呢。

原来这种感觉，使挥不去的。

这，从我懂事以来的感觉。

好讨厌。

coffee anyone?

2011-11-06T21:46:00.003Z

Inflammation blah blah blah.. studying all this is like reading a dictionary.. the consequences of it?

Short term memory loss.

Extra stress.

Tired.

Dizzy.

What else? Oh yeah, i've been saying alot of wrong phrase recently. been making a fool out of myself.

yeah, my mind finally decided to run away from home.

can i stop staring at the blank wall and concentrate on my books? -.-

enough said.

back to books.

till then,

love

qian

the rhythm of my heart

2011-11-05T16:59:00.003Z

A picture taken after a long day of rain.

Nothing much to update,

Till then..

qian

46 days to go!

2011-11-02T16:34:00.003Z

PEOPLE!! TELL THE WORLD I AM GOING HOME! :)

i actually have the urge to make a huge long thank you speech to my parents. just in case. they read my blog. I have modernized parents i know ;P

Life been good, back on track to focus on my studies after all the hardcore partying. Not exactly party every night that kind, but i was more to be a relaxing-holiday mood rather than stress mode. too much to do, too little time to handle. hence, you see a more grumpy side of me. -.-

I think my ass would be extra larger after sitting all day facing the comp. not the kind of lifestyle i am looking forward to now. i wonder how on earth did i live like that back at home? .. maybe its just back at home thats why i am all relaxed but now i have nothing better to do! -.-

:) i know i have loads to update but then i am seriously being freaking lazy.

Till then,

Love.

qian

Happy Halloween!

2011-11-01T01:19:00.007Z

Halloween has always been something i wanted to celebrate. I am not sure of the story behind, but the modern way of celebrating it seems fun. Atleast i have tonnes of fun yesterday night and a day before. Halloween celebration 2 days in a row! :) And so.. I was dressed up as two different character for both days.

Both are.. well spooky enough i would say. :)

this was one the first night. i think my theme was black widow. It was kinda last minute so i decided to draw something spooky on my face. :)

Here's a close up of it.

Have to thanks the photographer for all these pretty photo! more on facebook and i will publicize it soon! :)

The next day...

I dont know why, but i specially like this photo. the expression of mine. It was the only photo that i smile so naturally :)

My theme was.. i think a very japanese style ghost / mrs cullen? all my other pics were well.. pale and freaky. :)

sad enough i dont have a group photo for yesterday's party.

Was tipsy, high and crazy that night. But in overall, it was fun. :)

So,

How's your halloween?

Love,

qian

2011-10-29T23:59:00.002+01:00

Happy Birthday MUMMY! :)

Attended a halloween party just now and its a well.. it was kinda rush and last minute. Youtube is certainly my best friend now. Look for a tutorial and TADAH. i end up having this on my face. :) I have no idea what to wear, so .. this is a black widow look i suppose? :) i dont have a photo of myself in red lipstick. haha. i like this better though. :)

Happy Halloween peeps! Probably will upload another outfit of mine tomorrow :)

Love,

qian

4 months, and another 4 days

2011-10-12T00:21:00.003+01:00

Home, is still so far away.

broke down again, crying in tears, desperate to go home.

I am counting down each day.

but. things were never that easy.

if only flight tickets were much cheaper.

Dont know why am i so emotional these days.

I JUST WANT TO GO HOME. damn it.

i like the weather here, the environment but. no place is better than home.

hate talking on skype. the line always go crazy.

miss talking to my parents face to face.

miss pillow talking with my sister.

miss the moments we had. atleast, at this moment, i have my dearest sister with me.

she always kept me accompany.

miss mushu. the idiot who roll around and lie on you. he has no idea how stupid he is.

miss how noisy my home is. the talking of my aunty and uncle, the arguements they have just because their opinions are different.

i have never miss a single event back at home.

whether its someone's wedding. or anything. my attendence is COMPULSARY. sometimes i ask my parents, why do i have to go. dont i have a choice?

now, i wish i can go. i wish i can attend every things that happening.

mooncake festival. wedding dinner, birthday celebration.

i missed my sis's birthday.

missed my aunty.

missed gathering.

I WANT TO BE THERE!

been trying to act to all okay. but god knows how much i miss home.

i miss every person i used to hang out with.

i miss all the laughters, yum cha session, monthly birthday session.

sigh.

i dont like late night here.

my room is so quiet, usually at this time, i would be in my own room, and my sis next to me. we might not talk, or she might even complain that i am too noisy, distrupting her study moment. but who cares, i know you miss all this shit now right?

i miss bumping into my mum's room. just to lie on her bed.

i miss waking up mushu. just to see him being annoyed.

i miss, talking to him.

i miss the feeling of being love.

INDEPENDENT?

i wish i could stick on to my family like a koala bear holding on the tree.

growing up is harsh.

missing the old times.

2011-10-09T01:46:00.003+01:00

photos does bring back alot of memories. Thanks bao bei! i cant stop smiling whenever i see any old photo of us.

and a video i almost forgot.

this is how i look like when i was form 5:

4 years, i wonder how much have i changed. or,have i not change at all?

one thing i never did regret was to know everyone of you. those who walk into my life and make a difference, thank you for being there for me always.

Love

qian

missing you.

2011-10-02T00:53:00.003+01:00

Dear girl,

Its been a year since you left.

My heart still hurts when you came across my mind.

<3 death may tore us apart, but i promise, you'll always be in my heart.

You are, my greatest friend indeed.

I love you, my dear girl.

Beginning of a new chapter

2011-10-02T00:37:00.002+01:00

Class just started, and even if its only the first week of class, i feel the stress coming.

not a good way to start my new sem and I STILL HAVE LOADS OF THINGS I HAVENT UPDATE YET!

There are still pictures of rome that i have not upload in on facebook,

nor did i post anything about my trip here!

I STILL HAVE TO CLEAN MY ROOM!

somehow i still think its messy. -.- keeping my room need and tidy is not just something i am talented with. such a failure, for a girl.

Till then..

Love,

qian

A place i called home.

2011-09-29T23:32:00.002+01:00

I wanna go home so badly.

:(

I hate talking on skype.

Hate the time difference.

Hate being in the room alone

I miss the moments i have with my sister.

The pillow talk we used to have when we cannot sleep.

Miss the yum cha session with my buddies.

Miss eating dessert there.

Miss the bubble tea.

Why cant i teleport myself back home? :(

We do things differently :)

2011-09-28T11:05:00.004+01:00

My surroundings are flooded with september babies! :)

First off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAI KENT AND WEN!

It still feels weird missng out birthday celebration back home. 2 more months and i'll be home. i just cant wait :)

Then here in glasgow, birthday celebration comes in a row!

First was tracy's and sook yee's 21st birthday.

Then it was mun yee's 22nd birthday.

and there is another one tonight.

Alot of them right? ;)

Tracy's and sook yee's birthday were planned by Wendy. The VIP's were blindfolded and brought to a spot that none of us expected it would be that pretty at night! The trees were lit up by LED lights, i wish i can visit that place when it snows though, it would be romantic! :)

I dont have the group photo's picture with me. but here's what i got from Wendy's blog.

Despite that it was drizzling, everything were carried out smoothly. :) See the smile of their faces. It would be a long lasting memory, right?

Next on tuesday night, it was our hot model, Mun Yee's 22nd birthday!
Things went wee bit out of control, unlike the usual birthday songs then cut cake session. We asked her to model using her birthday cake. Whatever happen, its a secret among us. But, we definitely laugh and enjoyed the most out of it. I barely could breath due to all the laughters. I wish i could post a photo of it, but there were no "proper" photo that can be post! :) So, no photos for this. :)

Lastly. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH MY AUNTIES :)

love you both loads!

Love,

qian

l.o.s.t

2011-09-24T23:53:00.002+01:00

It had never happen before, but recently, i no longer know who i am anymore.

Not because i have changed or anything, or there is major change in my surroundings,

Its just, i always thought that i know myself well enough, how a person i truly am.

But these days, i am always in deep thoughts.

WHAT KIND OF PERSON I AM or CAN BE, and what is happening to me now.

whatever i am doing, it seems so not like me at all.

i wish i knew what was in my mind.

what was my heart's true answer.

till then

qian

going down the memory lane.

2011-09-21T01:03:00.000+01:00

I dont know about you guys, but i personally favour certain old songs that belong to the times of my parents.

I dont know many old songs, but they are a few that are my favourite just because they are my parents favourite sing-along-song as well.

It was one of the best moment i enjoyed spending with my family. Throughout our journey to another destiny, old songs were played constantly and i could just sing along with my parents. Whether i am out of tune or i am not catching up at all, nothing matters. The atmosphere beats everything. At the end of the day, its a piece of memory that stays among us.

Some of the old songs like the one below is my favorite. I can still sing it, with the music playing along of course. :)

I seriously miss those moment.

Wish i had doraemon with me so i can teleport myself back home. :/

Will be back to blogging soon!

2011-09-13T19:52:00.001+01:00

Ciaoz from italy! :)

Will be back blogging soon about my trip.

Walk a lot, see a lot of things and I am so bloody tan now!

qian <3

Ciao italy!

2011-09-04T03:33:00.001+01:00

Few more hours and hello italy! First time I am staying overnight at the airport, and I am still wide awake. Seriously, I don't know how to sleep in this condition. Its so noisy and so bright -_-

So here I am blogging!

My first stop would be venice, a beautiful place surrounded by water. A romantic place, sitting on the gondola with your love ones. Now I wish I have someone beside me, especially in this romantic place. :(

Ahhh! I can't write any longer . I just have to wait till I reach venice then. Probably I will get some inspiration and beautiful pictures about that place :)

Till then,

Love

Qian
qian <3

2011-09-01T12:13:00.000+01:00

i wonder, if you have move on.

is it that easy to move on?

2011-08-31T22:18:00.001+01:00

有时候，想被人深深的爱着

手，可以紧紧被握着。

永不分开。

2011-08-31T20:18:00.002+01:00

I want to blog so much but then there is nothing popping out in my brain.

Results was released yesterday and i am pretty satisfied with it. :)

Need motivate myself to work harder next sem.

So, results behind. The next thing that in my to-do list is my ITALY trip .

half excited. haha. I AM SO LAZY TO PACK MY LUGGAGE and think of what to wear. probably just throw some t-shirts into my bag tadah! i am ready to go.

Stay tune for my italy trip. wont be blogging much i suppose. :)

这样的心情

2011-08-26T01:36:00.003+01:00

Just finish watching another series of anime, got addicted to it somehow. ..

I dont know how to explain the feeling, possibly from anime, i get to feel the love.

the love from the main character. its just .. so romantic.

Whether the feelings have been returned, all you cared of was the feeling of the person.

Suddenly, i feel like being in love too.

The feeling of being care, being love, being protected, somehow,

the anime i just finish watching, at some point it can be applied to me as well.

to be someone tough, to be someone with courage, to be like superwomen, where i can handle anything on my own ...

but thats not true. no one can do things alone.

once in a while, i feel like being a child as well. although i always make fun of myself, make a joke out of myself, but the mask behind, i wonder how many people can see through it. ..

once in a while, i hope i have someone i can rely on, i can cry on, i can manja on with no reasons, no fear , i can just express however i feel. but being at this age, its barely impossible, right?

即时看起来大剌剌，糊糊涂涂，

即时，有些时候表现出无比的坚强，

我也好想被人捧在手心里，

好像抛弃大姐姐所该有的身份。

好像回到从前无忧无虑的谈恋爱。

好像撒娇，任性，被纵容。即时像个小孩也无所谓。

这样的心情，谁懂？

Yumeiro Patissiere

2011-08-23T19:27:00.002+01:00

Must Watch! :)

the bakery makes me drooool.

:)

highly recommended! so go watch it alright? ;)

good shows are meant to share.

Till then,

Love.

late

2011-08-23T00:51:00.001+01:00

Its getting late here. but then, i am still wide awake.

What should i do next, besides staring at my comp like this all day.

Sometimes, i am just desperate to find someone to talk.

Not anyone, but someone.

someone i can click on and talk all day long.

just to get the loneliness away.

its not easy, when the feeling is eating you all up.

What can i do and what should i do?

What's my dream?

2011-08-22T11:46:00.002+01:00

As i was watching Yumeiro Patissiere, something cross my mind. What's my dream? I wonder.

It startled when the characters inside the anime was fighting to go Paris, to enter St Marie academy to compete and achieved their dream, to be a top patissiere. they work so hard, train all day and night and yet, they are only midschoolers.

I know, its just an anime. But people work hard to chase their dream.

I have no idea what's my dream. What is my passion that i will commit 100% to it?

I certainly do not want to grow old day by day wasting a single moment. but then again, how can you seek for what you are suppose to look for?

love,

qian

post-exam

2011-08-18T23:01:00.003+01:00

So, its the first week after my finals.

All of a sudden, the tension, all kind of stress and the days we work hard every night to cope with the studies, ITS ALL OVER!

what a relief!

It was a pretty good week for me, besides losing my money for the second time.

i curse you! whoever who pick up my money -.-

Hamo came for a short visit, and thanks to the exemption i was able to accompanied him 2 out of 3 days .

I fall sick one of the day and end up lying on the bed. feel so bad for leaving him alone.

not much photo taken, and i SHOULD have. since i was trying all kinds of nice food with hamo but i forget to take a picture every single time .

Hamo's visit kinda ease my home sick a little. He brought me all kinds of stuffs from home, including moon cake! :) so nice of him for helping me to bring over the stuffs my parents wanted to send. :) and my stuff followed him travelling from denmark to germany then to london and the last stop : GLASGOW! my stuff travel more than i do -. -

That pretty much sums up my week and probably more to come tomorrow! :)

OH! and i bake as well! :):)

i thought it would be a failure but its not that bad after all! :)

Lastly, i almost forgot!

BRAD PITT AND ANGELINA JOLIE IS IN GLASGOW. Brad Pitt came here to shoot his new movie WORLD WAR Z and they transform glasgow george square to philadephia. not so sure how you name it.

Its so cool! I AM in UK but they turn everything to US style. :):)

maybe i could get some photo from fb! :)

Till then,

Love,

qian

别傻了。谁在乎

2011-08-18T00:48:00.001+01:00

the weakest moment is when you fall sick.

waking up finding that no one truly cares around you

2011-08-14T11:44:00.002+01:00

真正的愛情，不是一見鍾情，而是日久生情；真正的緣份，不是上天的安排，而是你的主動；真正的自卑，不是你不優秀，而是你把她想得太優秀；

真正的關心，不是你認為好的就要求她改變，而是她的改變你是第一個發現的；真正的矛盾，不是她不理解你，而是你不會寬容她。

我們一直覺得妥協一些、將就一些、容忍一些可以得到幸福。但當你的底線放得越低，你得到的就是更低的那個結果！不是嗎?

不要因為寂寞愛錯人，更不要因為愛錯人而寂寞一生，嘗試信任才能得到幸福。緣分是本書，翻的不經意會錯過，讀得太認真會淚流。

女人會記得讓她笑的男人，男人會記得讓他哭的女人，可是女人總是留在讓她哭的男人身邊，男人卻留在讓他笑的女人身邊。

多少人在說，我會等你，等你回心轉意的那一天；我會等你，等你願意和我在一起的那一天；我會等你，等你離開那個人來到我身邊的那一天

；我會等你，等你……然而人們可曾知道，世上的愛情，沒有幾份真的經得起等待！

這個世界上最殘忍的一句話，不是對不起，也不是我恨你，而是，我們再也回不去。就是這樣再簡單不過的一句話，

生生的將兩個原本親密的人隔為疏離。

沒有經歷過的人，永遠都不會明白，那是怎樣的一種切膚之痛。

最寶貴的東西不是你擁有的物質，而是陪伴在你身邊的人。不能強迫別人來愛自己，只能努力讓自己成為值得愛的人，其餘的事情則靠緣分。

愛總是會使我們有太多期許：希望長久，希望不會分別，希望佔有和實現。而最終只是覺得有些許厭倦，不知道該往哪裡去。愛情就是這樣，

有些人會慢慢遺落在歲月的風塵裡，哭過，笑過，吵過，鬧過，再戀戀不捨也都只是曾經。

世界上最動人的情話，不是“我愛你”，而是在我需要的時候，你說“ I'll be there ” 。

每一個不敢再愛的女人，一定很深的愛過。看起來好像百毒不侵，其實早已百毒侵身。

女人好比梨，外甜內酸。吃梨的人不知道梨的心是酸的，因為吃到最後就把心扔了，所以男人從來不懂女人的心。男人就好比洋蔥，

想要看到男人的心就需要一層一層去剝！但在剝的過程中你會不斷流淚，剝到最後你才知道洋蔥是沒心的。

愛情裡最忌諱的是：兩人都幻想著彼此的未來，卻也總惦記著對方的過去。

明明說著看開了，放下了，每次卻總是不自覺的想起那個給與溫暖的人。每每又總是在微笑沉醉時看到了現實，想到了傷痛，

然後，冷的感覺再也暖和不起來了。

如此反复，心，終於累了，現實就是這樣。我曾經醉過，卻又最終醒來，我正在行走，卻找不到方向。

我想給你幸福，卻走不進你的世界。我想用我的全世界來換取一張通往你的世界的入場券，不過，那隻不過是我的一廂情願而已。

我的世界，你不在乎；你的世界，我被驅逐。我真的喜歡你，閉上眼，以為我能忘記，但流下的眼淚，卻沒有騙到自己。

道歉並不總意味著你是錯的，而對方是正確的。有時它只是意味著相對自我而言，你更珍惜你們之間的關係。

有些傷痕，劃在手上，癒合後就成了往事；有些傷痕，劃在心上，那怕劃得很輕，也會留駐於心；有些人，近在咫尺，卻是一生無緣。

生命中，似乎總有一種承受不住的痛。有些遺憾，注定了要背負一輩子；生命中，總有一些精美的情感瓷器在我們身邊跌碎，

然而那裂痕卻留在了歲暮回首時的剎那。

looks me in the eyes

2011-08-13T10:37:00.001+01:00

:)

and tell me you love me.

All pump up!

2011-08-11T09:54:00.002+01:00

The taste of exemption! It was awesome.

I still can't believe my name was in it!

For a moment i thought i was dreaming.
Afterall. Many say that you need luck and the passing level was wee bit higher than usual.

:) Now, its a relief.

I am one of the lucky seventeen! :)

AHHH! i still cant stop grinning.

Despite the weather, the results brighten up my day.

Now i am all pump up for my last paper. THEN, HELLO SEM BREAK!

2011-08-10T22:52:00.000+01:00

还爱我吗，好像问你这句话，

却又怕听到你真实的回答。

突然间，这首歌好符合我的心情。

i didnt know what to say

2011-08-10T11:57:00.002+01:00

I studied, but memorizing wasnt my best skill.

I dont know what to conclude in the paper. i tried, and well. there is nothing left i can do.

i can feel my heavy brain as if it will be falling off from my head soon.

sigh.

sometimes, i missed the times i get to rely on someone.

to cry on someone.

to talk whatever i have inside me.

but now.

i guess learning to be more independent is the key.

:(

2011-08-10T07:56:00.001+01:00

2 more to go.

i can feel my brain bursting.

i truly believe

2011-08-08T21:48:00.001+01:00

I truly believe in one thing.

No matter how hard the road is infront of you.

you have to stay positive and believe in yourself.

Atleast thats why calm me down every single time.

I NEED TO CHILLLL!!

CariBilik Is Now Known As iBilik

2011-08-08T00:55:00.004+01:00

As some of you may have already noticed, CariBilik has a new name!

Now it is known as iBilik!

Despite the change of name, the service provided by iBilik is still much pretty the same as the previous name.

As you may noticed from the iBilik webpage, it is one of the largest and top ranked webpage in Malaysia. It is not without reason that why many people opt for iBilik when it comes to room searching, the website itself, not only work hard on advertising their page, it also serve as a service provider free of charge for people who are looking for rooms or wanting to let their room out for renting.

With over 70K of listing posted online and wide spread in all areas of Malaysia, it is barely impossible to find an ideal location for your stay. Whether you are looking for a room to rent, or planning a short stay, iBilik sure provides an option for you.

In any case, if the options provides does not match to what you are looking for, simple register to their website and post up the requirement. With that many view each day and a little bit of luck, you may find your ideal stay as well!

So, why wait?!

Faster hurry up and register to their website!

2011-08-07T19:15:00.001+01:00

A simple message cheers my day.

Now i cant stop myself from grinning :)

THANK YOU! :)

2011-08-07T08:32:00.001+01:00

2011-08-06T18:29:00.001+01:00

Listen to the songs I play for they are words that I can't say <3
qian <3

2011-08-06T14:13:00.000+01:00

喜欢下雨，因为在站雨中你不会知道我流泪了..
喜欢发呆，因为看着远方你不会知道我想你..
喜欢孤单，因为一个人时你不会发现我爱你..
喜欢在你身边，因为拥有你是我快乐的唯一因素..

幸福不是等待它就会来的，幸福它需要自己去追随！
流星要去找寻自己的幸福，星星却在原地傻傻的等待幸福..

还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你，还是害怕听不见你的消息..
是不是我爱已经沉淀得太清晰？

「幸福」是一颗梦想的种子，需要用「生命的热情」去灌溉；
「幸福」不是靠别人给的，而是要认真抓住、用心选择！

每一滴眼泪都有它落下的含义，而我的泪会为你而聚集。
当爱情不能完美时，我宁愿选择放弃，微笑着离开。
其实，我并不伟大..
只是，我爱你..

也许某天，在喧闹的城市中，你我擦肩而过，我会停住脚步，
凝望著那个正在远去的背影告诉自己，
那个人，我曾经深爱过..

有一种爱，明明是深爱，却说不出来..
有一种爱，明明想放弃，却无法释怀..
有一种爱，明知是煎熬，却又躲不开..
有一种爱，明知无前路，心却早已收不回来..

有人说过，没有人值得你流泪，
值得你流泪的人是不会让你哭的..

真的爱，放开了手，也不会随风而去..
真的爱，心意相通，又何必太多的甜言蜜语..

世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死..
而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你..
我却不敢说出我爱你..

有些明明彼此明明很相爱，也很想念，却不能在一起..
更不能在想念对方时，通个电话听到彼此的声音，
很想告诉他：我好想你..
因为没有勇气，也没有了机会..

我愿意放下尊严，放下个性，放下固执，都只是因为放不下你..

喜欢一个人，是不会有痛苦的..
爱一个人，也许有绵长的痛苦..
但给我的快乐，也是世上最大的快乐..

有人说，
带给你快乐的那个人，
就是也能带给你痛苦的人..

失望，有时候也是一种幸福，因为有所期待..
所以才会失望，因为有爱，才会有期待..
所以纵使失望，也是一种幸福，虽然这种幸福有点痛..

爱一个人很难..
放弃自己深爱的人更难..

如果没法忘记，就不要忘记好了。
真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。

一直想找一个，
在我失意时，可以承受我的眼泪..
在我快乐时，可以让我咬一口肩膊的人..

没人知道，遇见你，是对是错..
但我知道，遇见你，我不曾后悔..

爱情是相对的需要两情相悦才能走到一起..

女人

2011-08-06T02:13:00.000+01:00

女人，你总是那么害怕离别，却总是假装坚强；
女人，你总是那么害怕黑夜，却总是暗自躲藏；
女人，你总是那么害怕独处，却总是孤单一人；
女人，你总是那么容易付出，明知是痛苦，却还那么执着；
女人，你总是那么容易受伤，明知是欺骗，却还自欺欺人；

女人，你怎么总是那么傻，让人心疼。

这样的一个人

2011-08-05T12:47:00.001+01:00

可不可以有一個人… 可以看穿我的逞強。

可以保護我的脆弱。不要在我說「沒事啦，你去吧」的時候就真的會放心的放開我的手然後留我一個人。

不要在我笑笑的不說話的時候就真的會以為我心裏沒有覺得疼痛和難過。

不要在我若無其事的忙碌著手頭的事的時候就真的會以為我什麼影響都沒有受到。

我希望他會在我的眼淚掉下以前就用大大的手掌捂住我的眼睛。然後輕聲說我的眼睛只有微笑的時候才是最好看。

我希望他會在我面無表情的時候輕輕的用力的摟緊我。然後說你在我的面前永遠都不需要偽裝堅強。我希望他會在我受到委屈的時候把我的腦袋按在他的肩膀上。然後撫著我的頭髮說沒關係就算所有的人都不相信你，你都還有我。

5 days and counting

2011-08-05T12:39:00.001+01:00

i guess.

i just have to deal with it.

A better day

2011-08-05T11:09:00.003+01:00

Starting of my day with a nice cup of hot coffee :)

Sunny sunshine out there makes me wanted to put a huge smile on my face as well.

Sometimes, all you have to keep thinking was things that makes you happy, all the positive thougths.

Atleast, thats what keeps me going.

No matter how much i fall, how deeply it hurts.

Never give up trying is the best phrase for me.

i may not be the brightest among all,

but i'll stand out on my own way.

shine with my very own personality :)

Love,

qian

从爱到失去.

2011-08-04T15:40:00.000+01:00

追求的时候当人家是宝，永远保持着最好的一面..

刚到手的时候疼人家到骨子里去，每天给她打十几个电话，发几十条信息，
她说什么你都铭记在心，想吃什么、想买什么、想去哪里你都会尽全力去满足，
温柔体贴无微不至，巴不得二十四个小时都能跟她呆在一起..

一开始总是包容的..
就算她的生活习惯与你不同也会努力的调试配合，一切一切都是美好的..

久了..
腻了..

每天别说几十个电话，就连1个电话都懒得打，打电话时只说具体情况，
把那些觉得无关要紧的“情趣”话都省了..
信息就更不用说了，她发10条你回有一半你就觉得你回的已经够多了，
就连她打电话给你你都觉得她啰嗦..

你不会再为她想吃早点而早早起床，你不会再为她排队买她想要东西，
你不会专门请假带她去她想去的地方，你会觉得她什么事都依赖着你，
让你觉得她麻烦事特多..

接着你会发现她的缺点越来越多，她的优点快被她的缺点掩盖，你快忍无可忍了..

最后，厌了..
潇洒的用“分手吧！”
一句简单的言语结束了复杂的感情..

或耗着等着，直到有一天她受不了忽冷忽热或若即若离的态度自己选择离开，
你还可以说是她自己离你而去，你没有负心..

男人，你记不记得你曾经说过：
“我永远都会对你这么好，一辈子都这样爱着你宠着你！”

不是她麻烦事特多，是你一开始就说得做得太到位，太好了，才会让她依赖上你！

你记不记得你曾经说过：
“不管多晚，睡不着都可以打电话给我，我的手机24小时都为你开机！”

那你又嫌她不体贴，白天工作的时候打电话打扰到你，辛苦了一天晚上要睡觉了她还缠着你不肯挂线。是谁让她养成何时何地想打电话给你就打电话给你的习惯？

她无理取闹

那是因为从某一个时间段你的态度变了，你开始冷落她了..
让她觉得没了安全感，由使她起疑心！
不是她不信任你，不给你空间，
而是她爱你，在乎你，用尽所有时间去关心你，你的生活细微改变都牵扯着她的情绪..

她脾气不好

那是因为她有很多时候知道了很多事情，但你不说，她都选择沉默，在一直沉默；积压到一定的时间她们就会爆发心中的所有怨气；要知道，这一些都不是她脾气不好，是你不够细心发觉，她们是一直积压下来的！

她不再跟以前一样动人

当初是谁说不喜欢她每天变化多端像只花蝴蝶，是谁说喜欢她素颜的清纯模样？
虽说喜新厌旧是人性，除了毛主席跟古董以外，什么东西看久了都会审美疲劳，
但她不是东西，她是个活生生有着感情的人！

你不再给她答案，不再给她承诺，不希望你以后做不到让这些答案跟承诺变成谎言..

那你以前又给她那么多答案，给她那么多承诺，
现在为自己铺好后路可以前承诺过的叫她怎么忘记？
女人不怕诺言没实现，怕的是你承诺了又不去实现，最后实不实现是另一个问题！

你忙，你没时间没精力讨好她，你不知道她现在在想什么？

那你以前不忙吗？你以前是不是就把全部时间用来讨好她而不用工作？
那你以前怎么都那么细心观察她在想什么？

你觉得你们不配，你不想她再浪费感情在这段没结果的爱情上..

那你一开始追她干嘛？做实验啊？
她都已经浪费这么多感情和青春了，你当感情是水龙头吗？说开就开说关就关..

对，这一切都是你给自己找的借口..
别以为换个女朋友就可以永远摆脱那种感情暗淡时期，因为不久的将来你还是得回到这种时光，下个女朋友也是，下下个女朋友也是，下下下个女朋友也是，有种你一辈子不谈恋爱不结婚..

男人们，看完了回想一下你们的那段美好时光，
趁现在没有人偷偷想想是不是你们给自己找借口了？
那个以前深爱的女人现在就那么不值得你爱了么？

后悔分手的赶快努力从新追回来，以后用心经营着共有的感情！
其实女人要的很简单，只想要一个爱自己男人就够了..

想要分手的考虑清楚，并不是每段感情都可以挽回的！
考虑太久也不行，因为她们可以忍耐你冷落她一段时间，但不会一辈子傻下去..
她们再怎么傻，也会给自己一个时间段，去忍受你的冷落，去相信你的爱..
但时间一到，她们会毫不犹豫的离开，到那时再多的甜言蜜语都没有用了，
因为这世界上没有谁离开谁就活不了..

恋爱中的，好好珍惜现在那个愿意照顾你，体谅你，愿意陪你承担风雨的傻女人吧！
过了这个村，或许就没这个店了..

到时间结婚的就结婚吧，不要再拖拖拉拉婆婆妈妈..
结婚证一领就像买了保险，至少心里都有底了..

爱情，就像煮粥..
滚烫的时候加点配料它就是够火候又有滋有味的..
等到忘记关火煮焦了的时候，你闻都不想闻它甚至你连锅都想把它扔了..
看好你的火吧..

愛經不起等待更經不起不珍惜

2011-08-04T15:34:00.001+01:00

深更半夜電話鈴突然響起，我沒頭蒼蠅似的跌撞奔向電話。
拿起聽筒，對方掛了。
他媽的，就算打錯了，好歹也有個交待呀。
我一時心裡空落落的，不知是放下電話好，還是自己仍有什麼別的想法。
躲回床上，我真覺心冷了。
想起了自己久別的戀人。想到失眠。
去年秋天，一次她打電話給我，要我去找她。

我到了她家門前才發現她一個人坐在台階上，眼睛紅紅的。
未等我問怎麼了，她就衝過來一把抱住我的脖子，說：
『沒家的感覺好可怕。』於是就一把鼻涕一把淚的往我身上擦。

我不明所以，只是盲目的擁她，告訴她：『你不會沒有家的。』
後來我才知道，那天她只是誤把自己反鎖在了門外。
她有一雙極普通的眼睛，普通的眉毛，普通的鼻子和嘴。
站在你面前，就是這麼一個普通的女孩；走入人群中，立刻再難將她發現。
可我依然愛她很深。

此刻我拿出她的照片，那是她曾給我的唯一一張照片。
照片上的她穿我送給她的白色Ｔ恤。
那也是我們相識三年中，我曾送她的唯一一件衣服。
僅僅四十塊錢。
是堡獅龍季末打折時隨意買來的。
可買過後，她久久不肯穿。

我一直以為她不喜歡。
在我的威逼利誘下，她終於承認〝捨不得〞﹐因為是我送給她的。
面對這樣一個女孩，我常有的是感動。
可我卻不知如何去回報她的多情，我也不知道該如何表達清我自己。

或許我也從未想過要去說些什麼為了她。往昔的時光是美麗的。
夜深人靜，我久久的摩挲手中的照片，不願放下。
淚一滴滴落在照片上，來不及擦乾淨。
我覺得用〝自我感覺完全錯位〞這句話來形容自己一點都沒錯。
不論是我激動還是我平靜的時候，我都不太懂如何解釋自己。
相識三年之久，她終於向我提出了分手。
理由只是：在我身邊，她找不到可以依靠的感覺。

我知道自己想挽回，可不知該如何去挽回。
我想她並非是真的要和我分手，可我卻並沒問出口。
末了只有一句話：『如果你想要分手的話，那好吧。』
那一刻，她久久的望我。
眼神中的失望，驚的我只覺自己是個十惡不赦的罪人。

當她轉過身大步離去，我知道自己再也無法將她喚回。
是否相愛的人，永遠都只能像兩列對開的火車，只有擦身而過的緣份。
他們在相愛的時候，忘記了去傾訴。
他們在等待，等待對方先說出來。
可悲的人，為何要如此高傲？為何要如此固執？

我們的故事本該到這裡就結束了，劃上一個平淡而又無奈的句號。
可是沒有。
分手的一個多月後，她出了車禍。
從來都習慣，這樣的事發生在別人的世界裡。
可是它這次實實在在的發生在我身上，發生在我眼前。
奪走了她，我的愛人。
這個我曾一心一意要她做我老婆的女孩。

和她同院的一個兄弟把這件事告訴我後，我一拳把他打倒在地。
接著我扶起他，『我說哥們兒，今天可不是四月一號呀，別跟我開玩笑成麼？』
他緩緩向我道出了她的出殯日期。
我只知道自己雙腿一軟跪在了地上，其餘什麼也不知道了。
我和她相處了三年，有一千多天，很長很長。
出殯那天，我只能遠遠地跟在她親屬們的身後。

淚水滂沱的我終於明白，為何當初她那樣的依戀我。
當時的我，肝膽俱裂，我多想再擁她入懷中。
再拉住她的手，讓她乖乖地跟在我身旁。
可是伸出手，我只能拉住幻覺。
她永遠地走了。

事後的日子裡，我每晚都做同樣的夢。
醒來後才發現，我的枕頭已經濕透了。
此刻的黑暗中，手捧她的照片。
我的感覺再次錯位

我躺下，在身邊留出位置，讓我的愛人就睡在我身旁。
我的好兄弟們，或許你們比我經歷的事要多的多。
可是，聽我一句好嗎：
她向你要的，或許只是一種歸屬感。
如果你是愛她的，把你心裡的話講給她。
讓她從心底裡有個依靠。
因為，愛經不起等待

2011-08-03T15:27:00.002+01:00

i miss a shoulder that i used to lean on.

the person i used to spoke with.

pouring my heart out with no hesitation.

to love with no regret.

i missed holding the person's hand.

miss fooling around not worrying how stupid or ugly i may have looked.

i miss crying when all the actions he did touches my heart.

i miss the secrets we share.

i miss late night conversation.

i miss all the stupid arguments we had.

i miss.

hell loads of things.

i need a crash course!

2011-08-03T15:20:00.001+01:00

Seriously. now i admire those who can be so natural when they are up stage or being recorded.

they are 10 times better than me!

how i wish my brain runs wee bit faster and i am wee bit more spontaneous.

I NEED A CRASH COURSE!

2011-08-02T12:48:00.000+01:00

I used to make funny faces to cheer people up.

and now. i wish i have someone to cheer me up as well .

2011-08-02T11:01:00.002+01:00

Saw this on facebook, :) i know alot of people read it before, but still! i wanna post it!

１．抱起来很温暖，罗唆起来很烦，在身边讨厌，看不见又很怀念的人。

２．吃剩下一半的面不要浪费，他会接过去帮你吃乾净的人。

３．大冰脚贴在他大腿弄暖，他即使很冷，也不会把你脚踢开的人。

４．一起去大卖场买东西，总是比你多提两大袋，还要空出手牵你的人。

５．月经来，抓到你偷吃红豆冰，会很生气骂你的人。

６．你生大病，他却比你还要辛苦的人。

７．把买卫生棉已经当成每个月记得采买的男人。

８．吵完架做错事，还会厚脸皮跑来牵你手的人。

９．过了n周年的恋爱纪念日後，就会忘记情人节、圣诞节存在的人。

１０．没事一定会窝在你家，有事还是窝在你家，让你开始怀疑他是不是没有朋友的人。

１１．最喜欢看你开心的大笑，然後也对著你傻笑的人。

１２．漏接你电话，就会打爆你手机的人。

１３．养你吃饭、养你看电影、养你买小东西，动不动就开始为以後练习怎样包养你的人。

１４．最害怕讨厌听到你啜泣，只要听到你哭，还是会不辞千里的飞奔到你身边的人。

１５．偷偷的为你做了很多事，却从来不和你邀功的人。

１６．已经认为自己的手臂是枕头的人。

１７．胆敢会和你抢遥控器，最後却只能陪你看欲望城市的人。

１８．老是可以让周遭好朋友感到好奇的人。

１９．他一不在，你就会心烦意乱心不在焉，而开始很想念他的人....

20.真正爱你的男生，一下子说不出真正爱你的理由，只知道自己顾不上注意别人

21.真正爱你的男生，其实总惹你生气，你却发觉不了他到底做错了什么。

22.真正爱你的男生，很少当面赞美你，可是心里肯定你是他最棒的。

23.真正爱你的男生，会在你忘记回复他短信时狠狠地说你一顿。

24.真正爱你的男生，只可能在你一个人的面前流眼泪，当你触摸到他时，也触摸到了那颗只为你跳动的心。

25.真正爱你的男生，会默默地记住你不经意说过的话，在某时某刻重复它们。

26.真正爱你的男生，不会轻易做出承诺，因为他想让自己成为你心中说话最算话的男子汉，只想给你最可靠最安全的幸福。

27.真正爱你的男生，总告诉你不要胡思乱想，因为其实他在为你们谋划着最美丽真实的未来。同时让你无忧无虑地等待他要给你的惊喜。

28.真正爱你的男生，可能不像你一样清楚地记得某些纪念日，他觉得爱你是每时每刻的，并不是靠这几天简单的日子。

29.真正爱你的男生，不会轻易对你当面说“我爱你”，因为他为你做过的每件事都已经这么说了。除非在非常时刻，为了不让你无端地误解他。

30.真正爱你的男生，总觉得有些话只说一遍就够了，因为你已经了解他的心。说得多了，他会觉得不珍贵。

31.真正爱你的男生，如果他去机场接你，不会像你期望的那样捧着玫瑰大声叫“亲爱的”，只是自然地提过你的行李，然后想用眼睛抱紧你似的心疼地说，怎么瘦得像豆芽菜了？

32.真正爱你的男生，当你发脾气时，只会不做声地听你把火发完，然后慢慢地说，你明天有课吗？早点睡吧。

33.真正爱你的男生，不懂当你生气挂掉电话后应该立即打来，过了若干小时后会发条短信问你消气了没有？如果你质问他为何这么久才打来，他会理直气壮的说，你生气时我的解释一定没有用，等你的火消了，我的解释才有效果。

34.真正爱你的男生，总是叫你小姑娘，可是每次他做什么重大的决定，却总想先听听你的建议。

35.真正爱你的男生，不喜欢玩具小毛熊，却一直把你送他的小熊放在床头。

36.真正爱你的男生，当和你发生争执时，总是控制不了地先妥协，先承认“我错了”，过后发来短信以“神经病”开头，以“宝贝”结尾。事实上你也清楚，这次是你有点无理取闹。

37.真正爱你的男生，很想很想你时，也会买玫瑰送你，傻傻地等着你，却不知道自己捧的是月季。没关系，他的心里送的是玫瑰。

38.真正爱你的男生，嘴巴都不甜，但是他的吻能传递他所有的热情。

39.真正爱你的男生，当听到你对他讲很“酸”的话时，他反而会装得很正经，其实心里很甜很甜。

40.真正爱你的男生，如果不能经常见到你，他会让自己忙碌起来，为了不去想你，因为他知道一想你将会一发不可收拾。

这样对你的人真的是可遇而不可求，可是每个女生都在努力的寻找着……

I'm on screen!

2011-08-01T13:43:00.002+01:00

Nah, just kidding.

I wasnt on tv. It was a recording session for the coming video exam.

and OH BOY. it was a disaster.

I just cannot stand looking at myself when it was played back.

KENAPA PEREMPUAN INI PATTERN BANYAK BANYAK?!

at the end of the story.

I WANNA LOOK PRETTY ON CAMERA! :(

love,

qian

Gloomy!

2011-07-31T18:20:00.001+01:00

Starring outside my window and this weather makes me depressed!

Its so gloomy out there that you practically have no mood for anything.

Can I just rot and stone the whole day?
qian <3

2011-07-30T20:28:00.001+01:00

有个人，你一上线就会看他\她在不在，不在就1阵失落，在又不敢打扰；

有个人，你总是忍不住去看他\她空间，即使什么新鲜事都没有；

有个人，你真的可以无条件付出，他\她却不稀罕；

有个人，你那么舍不得，他\她却那么洒脱、不在乎；有个人，你总说要放下他\她，却总忍不住拿来回味

你不知道的事。

2011-07-30T20:22:00.003+01:00

你不懂，我一天看你资料多少次。

你不懂，上网跟你聊天我也会开心地大笑。

你不懂，我上线看到你不在时我有多失落。

你不懂，当所有人说你不好不适合我时，我只说了一句我喜欢。

你不懂，每晚上线只为等一句晚安。

你不懂，因为是你所以我倍感珍惜 ♥

女人為什麼願意男人抱著睡覺？

2011-07-27T15:12:00.001+01:00

-repost-

你可知道
當女人被男人脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛

你可知道
女人為什麼會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱著她睡
她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道
女人那麼愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道
深愛你的女人在沖你發火以後
自己卻轉身不斷哭泣

你可知道
當女人頂著哭花的臉
走在街上
不管....
是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了

你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道
她的任性她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她

你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你發火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐懼
而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你還不夠懂她
女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情

於是.你們爭吵.你認為她脾氣不好.她認為你不夠遷就她……
於是.你們冷戰.你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……
請給她一個擁抱一個吻.用你的擁抱你的吻去化解她心裡的悲傷和眼角的淚水.
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安靜。。。。。。。。。。

兩個深愛的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相體諒，互相信任，
否則當你們真正失去時將會遺憾終生。。。。。。
否則美好的未來也就在你們自己手中泯滅了！。。。。。。
希望每一個男人都能夠好好珍惜陪伴在你身邊的女人
她們為你付出過，不求回報
卻希望你們能夠讀懂，能夠牽著她們的手堅定地走下去
不要讓愛你的女人流淚
不要讓她傷心
更不要讓她絕望和死心！
因為女人一旦真愛了，失去她愛著的人
就意味著失去了整個世界...

你不知道的事

2011-07-25T13:15:00.001+01:00

一个男人，能为一个女人改到什么地步？

或许，

一句“等我”已足够。

恋人未满

2011-07-25T01:16:00.002+01:00

岂止一张照片的记忆。

Sunny sunshine!

2011-07-24T13:50:00.001+01:00

My first attempt, wait. Should be multiple attempt to post using blackberry.

Its hot out there but I am feeling cold. -_-
qian <3

2011-07-23T01:12:00.002+01:00

Its like you never care.

我走对了吗？

2011-07-22T16:07:00.004+01:00

当初所选择的路，如今我扪心自问，走对了吗？

一直想证明自己，　我可以的。只有努力，没有什么事情是办不到的。

但，　错了。　当中，还有所谓的运气。　

此刻的我，还能怎么办？

2011-07-19T14:56:00.001+01:00

我需要一个发泄的出口。

快崩溃了。

you know what..

2011-07-19T14:26:00.001+01:00

i miss you.

sigh.

there is something wrong with me

2011-07-06T23:45:00.002+01:00

Not a big problem though, just trying to get my brain working. I am trying to vomit 8 diaries for my course and yet, i am running out of ideas!

definitely hate this feeling. I know i am not a frequent blogger, but do stay tune for my edinburgh trip post alright?!

It should be coming up anytime soon.

HEAVY WORKLOAD HEAVY WORKLOAD.

summer class is definitely killing!

Love

qian

:) a memorable 21st.

2011-06-28T22:06:00.003+01:00

Staying miles away from home, living in a place filled with unfamiliar faces and skin tones, its is more than adapting.

Its my 20th day in Glasgow and my first birthday being away from home.

Honestly, i considered myself real lucky, realises loads more thing when i am away from home, the love given by my family, my friends, it makes me warm.

GLASGOW is no longer cold with the love by all of you :)

Its a real pretty place, not an interesting and exciting one, but more to the historical part where there are old and new buildings intersecting, i am still trying to get use to the life here, and adapt to the teaching style. Its wee bit difficult to understand what there were trying to say at times because they were way to fast, and usually, i asked for a repeat or i pretend to understand. :) just to limit the frustration.

just before i end this post,

I want to specially thanks my beloved family, especially my parents, for giving me all the support and love i need, its hard to stay so far away from them, but i am learning, and trying to prove to them that i can be independent, i am an adult now, HALF ADULT at least :)

and, how could i miss my old friends who well, knew most of them way back since i was secondary. they were always there for me, ups and downs, they never fail to appear. i appreciate it all and love you guys for it :)

lastly, my uni friends who made my birthday in glasgow a memorable one. thanks for the suprise and hard work for it :)

DO YOU FEEL THE LOVE FROM THEM?

i felt it all.<3

a little piece of glasgow and a full loads of love :)

-qian-

CariBilik Jakarta

2011-05-24T09:39:00.001+01:00

Cari Jakarta Kost!

Finding yourself a room in Indonesia and you are all drown by the advertisement available?

You may find yourself lucky, once you come across this website: CariBilik Jakarta. It is one of the first in Indonesia that sets up a website specifically for room available for rent or to let. Not to mention, it amazes me by the number of room that is available. Do you want to make a guess?

Its 1000 empty rooms and more! Image how many people have been posting on this websites offering you a place to stay. Usually, the first thing that we have to look for while spotting a place to rent is the location. Who wants to stay an hour away from their workplace or study location right? Then, you have to consider the security problem and the budget you have set for your room.

To be honest, you cannot determine how safe is the place based on the website. But this website can provide you a clearer view of how your room would be. Besides the basic description of the room, owners have to attach a picture of the room available and some may even provide you directions by using Google Map. With all the details and extras clearly listed, you get a basic idea on how your room will be and what is it like.

Also, to secure the safety of people renting the room, CariBilik Jakarta requires all owners to register with their website before they are allow to post any advertisement. So, if anything goes wrong you can always contact the website for assistance.

With all the things said, what are you still waiting for?

It takes forever!

2011-02-21T04:16:00.002Z

The thought of changing and getting a new blog is running in my head again, perhaps. i prefer something more personal.

One bad thing about blogspot is that they do not have the private function where i can limit my post only to myself. Maybe, i should start writing a diary instead.

I don't remember when was the last time i have the passion to blog. The blogging mood was no where to be seen. I dragged myself to blog here, just to keep this updated. *haha*

Alot and alot of things happened recently. i meant it, seriously ALOT.

having to deal with things and coping to study seems to mentally tore me apart. I dont find myself in the mood anymore. To do alot of things, to keep myself ALIVE. and yes, i am being anti-social these days. dont ask me why. i just lost the mood of doing anything.

its bad right?

maybe i should post my valentine blog or something. maybe.

till then,

toodles!

qian

Mont Kiara Specialist

2011-02-15T06:48:00.000Z

Mont Kiara as described by the author of Mont Kiara properties is very similar to the properties found in Hong Kong. In fact, Mont Kiara is not located in Hong Kong but at the north side of the city centre – Kuala Lumpur. It is a newly rise high end township that is located in a strategic location hence lead to high purchase demand by local and expatriates.

Mont Kiara is placed in the heart of Klang Valley, next to another new township - Sri Hartamas. It is connected to the three major expressways: the New Klang Valley expressway (NKVE), the Sprint Expressway and also the Damansara-Puchong Expressway, hence easy access to practically any location. It is only fifteen minutes away from Petaling Jaya as well as the downside of Kuala Lumpur.

Although most of the condominiums in Mont Kiara are built at high-end stature, there are also a few that are built under low cost development, hence affordable for everyone and not just the wealthy people. Besides of its strategic location and safe environment, another reason that causes Mont Kiara to be highly demand is the hotel-like service where all condominiums provide facilities such as swimming pool, tennis court and etc.

If you wish to know more on the properties in Mont Kiara, kindly visit the website that was written by the specialist of Mont Kiara.

A whole new me

2011-01-12T11:15:00.002Z

Well, not exactly.. just some part.

Did something extraordinary the day before, and the outcome? I like it pretty much.

You can guess all you want what have i done, or ask me personally.

I dont want to reveal yet, trying to hide it from "someone" .. which i dont think it can be possible any longer :P

You can always find your answer in facebook. hahaha :)

Oh.. CLASS TEST FINALLY ENDS!

after handling 3 class test in two weeks, i am totally exhausted. Wonder how will it be when final comes. CAN I JUST SWALLOW THE WHOLE BOOK? i wish i have a bigger brain to fit in all the informations. :(

All its left now was my school ASSIGNMENTS AND ONLINE ARTICLES!

I cant wait for new year already. i am damn random i know, my blog jumps from topic to topics. get use to it :)

Have to work harder now to satisfy all the January babies tummy. ITS NOT NICE AT ALL WHEN THERE ARE 4 of your friends turning 21 this month. you have to think of presents, gathering and watch your wallet burn.

once in a lifetime baby, once in a lifetime.

Till then,

Love

qian

Happy new year people!

2011-01-02T03:57:00.000Z

I almost forget that i actually own a blog. :)

too much distraction these days, blogging is not my choice :P

will update soon!

once again,

Happy 2011 ! :D

Abandoned

2010-12-09T12:36:00.003Z

Its getting a little dusty here, haven't really been in the "blogging" mood .

I was too caught for other stuff, prefer to carry out those stuff rather than to blog and update about my life.

I am crazily going episodes after episodes, seasons after seasons of different movie, now i even have the urge to watch old hk movies which i terribly miss, as if i am still on my HOLIDAY.

I miss holiday terribly, especially when people around you are being a free bird, you have to be in school almost EVERYDAY for lecture.

It sucks.

On the bright side, at least i am not letting myself to fail from the beginning.

I have no idea when this starts, but now i seriously hate going to tutorials with my mind being empty. I rather be prepared.

I hope the efforts continue all the way till finals. THEN I CAN SCREAM OUT LOUD THAT ALL THESE WILL BE PAID OFF. :)

love,

qian

Stop Child Abuse

2010-11-27T13:41:00.005Z

The rights of the children, its time to say STOP!

We were all lucky, to be able to write here and voice out ourselves, BUT they are still tons of children out there who needs help.

For me, the definition of being a children should be naive, happiness and of course, with loads of love and being well protected by their parents.

Sad enough, some in this world was not given this chance.

Sometimes, its not about how hurt your body feels, the true pain comes from accepting the message that it was their "suppose-to-be" closest family members that were the ones hurting them.

Its time to put a halt there.

I wish, raping/physical abuse/ mental abuse of their children will not ever happen again.

There should be no children who deserves to be treated this way.

Please,

lend your hands and help them!

2 months.

2010-11-18T13:19:00.002Z

in a blink of eye, you're gone for 2 months already.

the house still seems empty without you.

as if, a piece of puzzle was gone.

the family would no longer be the same without you.

Indeed, we all have move on.

But, the memories stay.

Do you miss beef balls or even chicken wings?

I still miss you, my baby girl. The food no longer seems that attractive anymore without you fighting with me.

I still wish, you're here.

just like old times.

手放开

2010-11-16T10:27:00.002Z

credits to: Francizzbm from deviantart

曾经，我很自豪的说：“我有一班朋友，一班我愿意为他们赴汤蹈火的朋友。”

事实还是如此吗？

我一直觉得，我们间的友情，是牢不可破的。

但，现在的我，仅觉得有这种想法，是可笑的。

我好累，好累。

累的，我宁愿躲在自己温暖的家里，也不愿强逼自己去看见这事实。

我的人生，我所有的想法，似乎总是围绕着这一个问题“不是朋友吗？为什么会这样。”

其实，心里却心知肚明。

我们是朋友，却再也回不去从前。

曾经，我怀念无论是谁都能喋喋不休的我。

我，真的曾经努力过。

或许，这就是回不去的从前吧。

该，学会放开了。

该，学会不要去在乎了。

该，看清事实。

其实，你什么都不是。

looking back.

2010-11-15T07:49:00.003Z

i realized that i am very good in making a fool out of myself, in fact. i can call myself expert already.

Drove to school today, end up there were no class since the university was so "poor" to pay up the electric bills, wasted my toll and petrol for going all the way there. On my way back, i saw this girl, and i thought she was my SAM classmate, being excited to see her, i call for her name.

Well, i will definitely not make a fool out of myself if i decided to drove up the moment she did not respond, but i do not know what went wrong with my brain i thought she did not hear me calling for her. I was like " eh, how come you just ignore me like that?" and that moment, the girl turn back to me and pointing at herself, asking me :" you're talking to me?"

I stoned for several seconds, trying to look what is so different about my friend, and heck. IT WAS A DIFFERENT PERSON.

i feel dumb. seriously. god knows how i manage to embarrass myself like that.

Love,

qian

i never seem to have enough of this.

2010-11-07T08:28:00.002Z

I saw this mv and i just have to post this up.

So sweet right?

Here'e the lyrics and translation.

its so sweet. :)

내가 몰랐었나봐

Nae-ga mol-lass-eo-na-bwa

너를 몰랐었나봐

Neo-reul mol-lass-eo-na-bwa

이렇게 더 가까이에 있는데

i-reoh-ge deo ga-gga-i-e itt-neun-de

정말 소중한 것은 사라져간 후에야

Jeong-mal so-jung-han geos-eun sa-ra-jyeo-gan hu-e-ya

알수 있는가봐 지금의 너처럼

Al-su itt-neun-ga-bwa ji-geum-eui neo-cheo-reom

미안해 니가 흘린눈물 알지 못해

mi-an-hae ni-ga heul-rin-nun-mul al-ji mot-hae

미안해 이제서야 니앞에 와서

mi-an-hae i-je-seo-ya ni-ap-e wa-seo

One More Time One More Time

다시 한번 내곁으로 와줄순 없겠니

Da-shi han-beon nae-gyeot-eu-ro wa-jul-sun eobs-gett-ni

언제나 너만을 사랑해

Eon-je-na neo-man-eul sa-rang-hae

늦은 이 후회만큼 더 사랑할께

Neuj-eun-i hu-hoe-man-keum deo sa-rang-hal-gge

바보같은 내가 널

Ba-bo-gat-eun nae-ga neol

마음에 없는 말들로

Ma-eum-e eobs-neun mal-deul-ro

그렇게 많이 아프게 했나봐

Geu-reoh-ge manh-i a-peu-ge haett-na-bwa

니가 아니였다면 몰랐을 행복인데

Ni-ga a-ni-yeott-da-myeon mol-lass-eul haeng-bok-in-de

이제야 알았어 니가 사랑이란걸

i-je-ya al-ass-eo ni-ga sa-rang-i-ran-geol

고마워 소중한 사랑을 가르쳐줘

Go-ma-weo so-jung-han sa-rang-eul ga-reu-chyeo-jweo

고마워 이제 내가 더 사랑할게

Go-ma-weo i-je nae-ga deo sa-rang-hal-ge

One More Time One More Time

다시 한번 내곁으로 와줄순 없겠니

Da-shi han-beon nae-gyeot-eu-ro wa-jul-sun eobs-gett-ni

언제나 너만을 사랑해

Eon-je-na neo-man-eul sa-rang-hae

늦은 이 후회만큼 더 사랑할께

Neuj-eun-i hu-hoe-man-keum deo sa-rang-hal-gge

One More Time One More Time
One More Time One More Time

사랑해 널 사랑해 이런 나를 다시 받아줄순 없겠니

Sa-rang-hae neol sa-rang-hae i-reon na-reul da-shi bad-a-jul-sun eobs-gett-ni

언제나 내게 준 그 사랑

Eon-je-na nae-ge jun geu sa-rang

내가 다 갚을 수 있게

Nae-ge da gap-eul su itt-ge

허락해줘

Heo-rak-hae-jweo

내 손을 잡아줘

Nae son-eul jab-a-jweo

TRANSLATION

I guess I did not know
I guess you did not know
That we are standing too close like this
We can’t really let this beautiful thing disappears
Now you will understand me

I’m sorry that I didn’t know the reason behind those tears
I’m sorry, now I’m right in front of you

One More Time One More Time
Can you return to my side once again?
I will always love you
I’ll never regret, I will only love you

I’m so foolish
For not knowing what’s inside your heart
It seems to be in pain
Without you I don’t happiness
Now I understand what love is

Thank you for teaching me about love
Thanks you, now I will know how to love you more

One More Time One More Time
Can you return to my side once again?
I will always love you
I’ll never regret, I will only love you
One More Time One More Time
I love you, I love you
Will you accept me again someday?
Please let me return it to you
The love you always gave me
Just hold my hand

credits to jessica @ kpopjpoplyric.blog.com and MsHiik @ youtube + kpopfreeze.blogspot.com :)

Besides that awesome song :)

my new sem just begin.

As usual, it was disastrous. The pharmacy department would be giving us talking and pressurizing us with all sorts of thing. Something different than last sem was, i skip this session.

I kind off predicted how stressful it would be to be sitting there for 2 hours hearing it and making myself feel like some dumb ass how cannot perform well, hence decided to give myself a longer life span and skip the torturing lecture.

With the starting of new semester, i definitely have to come up with some new semester resolution to give myself some motivation.

My new semester resolution is : I WANNA SCORE BETTER.

i dont want to end up getting some other degree rather than master of pharmacy. so I HAVE TO CONTINUE WORKING HARDER. *duh,what else can i do besides that?*

Till then,

toodles!

qian

This does not happen in reality.

2010-11-05T09:13:00.005Z

I think i am going insane.

Something like this will definitely not happen in reality.

Something that catches my heart and make my heartbeats stop.

I dont like the chasing part, i feel the pain going for a guy for 4 years straight waiting for his love, but.. thats because of all the waiting that she have gone through gets the love of her life.

Whether its the taiwan version of the drama or the korean version,there is one particular scene that makes my heart beats faster, I THINK I AM MELTING!

After watching both version, i personally like how 直树 was all worried and running around looking for 湘琴。He loves her silently.

BUT.

the korean version where 白胜祖 paek sae jo confess to 哈妮 was breathtaking as well. Unlike the taiwan scene where 直树 said nothing and just kiss her after she confess. 胜祖 was super “霸道” and “大男人". He said something like you cannot like anybody else besides me.

DO YOU FEEL THE HEAT?!

i think i can watch it again and again.

Click on the video to watch it! :D

Unfortunately, i cannot find any english sub for the korean episode. I watch it on pps. :D

On the side note, do visit enchantedmacaroons.blogspot.com, an online macaroon website run by two passionate bakers, selling macarons in a variety of flavour :D

love,

qian

了解

2010-10-31T13:46:00.002Z

围绕在你身边的朋友，有几位？

又有多少为，是真心付出，真的在乎？

在我身边的，哪位，又是我可以毫不犹豫地去依赖的呢？

有些事情，是再也挽不回的。

我好想好想问，

我们，究竟是怎么了。

但，话到了嘴边，却连一句也说不出。

该怎么努力，

才能回到最初？

才能让一切，看起来是那么的美好？

珍惜

2010-10-31T13:39:00.003Z

这三个月的假期，

经历了很多，所谓人生的起起伏伏，

我想，这就是所谓的人生吧

它与她的离开，

充满了不舍，却也无可奈何。

我知道，他们一定会好好的。

在另一个世界，看着我们。

2010-10-24T16:42:00.002+01:00

so lazy to blog.

so lazy to blog

so lazy to blog.

Three months of semester break..

I have gone through both heaven and hell.

heart breaking pain, mad laughter, tears, joy.

tons of things happen.

for now,

i only have one thought in mind.

SHE must get well. MUST.

KEEP FIGHTING!

Love,

qian

Largest Used Car Website in Malaysia

2010-10-18T18:05:00.002+01:00

As you may realise, the major transport in Malaysia is still cars. How can you survive without cars especially if you are living or heading to somewhere that has no KTM, LRT or bus stops? However, owning a car is not easy. Especially if you are fresh graduates who just got out from university and just begun the working life. Before thinking of purchasing a new car that may cost a bomb, purchasing a second hand car may be a better option.

The biggest fear of getting a used car is definitely paying for nothing. Especially Malaysia used cars, where you may not have a single hint of what the previous owner has done to the car. Another thing of getting a used car is that you have to search location by location to find the ideal car you are looking for. Some may have the car you want, but not the year, some may be a little pricy, some may not be in the condition you are looking for. However, all these problems are sorted out already. There are now largest car website where used cars can advertise there. All you have to do is search on the location and car model you are looking for, look through the pictures given by the car owner and lastly, contact the owner for further information. Sounds easy? At least you do not have to go through all the troublesome to look for cars from different areas.

Also, with the used of the website, searching used cars no longer is a difficult task. Ranging from expansive cars such as Mercedes, mini cooper, to normal price range cars such as Myvi, through the website, there must certainly be something that suits your financial status.

Not to mention, this website gave extra confidence to purchaser. You do not have to worry of getting a spoil car or unwanted car. There must be a reason to why it is ranked as the largest used car website in Malaysia right?

Like my new layout?

2010-10-15T17:24:00.003+01:00

I am looking for an ideal layout.

So lazy to change all the html code already since blogspot was so nice to allow us to choose any layout just by clicking it.

I never like html. There is no doubt it was challenging, for a person like me who know nuts about html code. It was hard. I love the feeling when i make something works. BUT. its torturing as well to sit infront of the comp for HOURS, just to get everything right.

Till then.

Do enjoy my new layout :D

I know. you can just find it at the design corner. although it may not be special, or you have already seen it on someone else blog.

But.

Just "open one eye, close one eye" and pretend its NEW! :D

Love,

qian

何谓快乐？

2010-10-14T16:29:00.002+01:00

当两个本该相爱的人，

因为不能见面，

而出口成脏。

每一句话，都想一把利剑，

把伤口一次又一次的刨开，

这样的爱情，还能称之为快乐吗？

我，很迷惘。

My missing post

2010-10-12T15:25:00.002+01:00

I wanted to blog so much everyday, but i am just so tired. *yawn*

I am working now, for the very last month of my holiday. What a sad way to end my holiday right?

Atleast i enjoy, at the beginning. :)

I am currently working in a pharmacy store near my housing area, I apply for the assistant pharmacy post, but i am more like a cashier/ cleaner. What to do, I'm not a graduate and you cant simply give medicine to others right? :)

Besides standing most of the time, the working hour was actually alright. From 10-1 then 6 till 8.30, the missing hours. I can do whatever i want. Sounds awesome right? but there goes my freedom. To go out whenever i want, to schedule whatever i want.

I realize i am not much of a working person. I do not like my time being tight up with WORK. Lets say:

"Eh, you free tomorrow?"

"No. i AM working."

So potong right? :( Thats exactly how i feel now. Even back then when i have to work for only 3 days a week. I still dont like it. But that was way tolerable since its only 3 times a week. But this. I have to work for 6 days. ONLY one day of rest. damn sad. :(

Well, the bright side. At least i was not tortured by my boss. Its all easy job. I even get to online, without his permission of course. but. WHO cares. I bet he knew.

I was FB-ing infront of him today. From his expression, i can see that he is shock. But he didnt say much. So yeah, i take it as a YES.

Another thing to keep me away from boredom was novel. Loads and loads of online novel.

I rather keep myself busy while working, atleast.. the time pass faster. But just by standing there. I can start counting mosquitoes already.

PHHHEWWW.

finish nagging.

i know. Its an easy job.

I truly appreciate it :)

I am just NAGGING. need some space to breath you know.

Love,

qian

Stay tune

2010-10-10T17:06:00.000+01:00

I will update. pretty soon :)

been working this week. I'll nag about it in my next post :)

be patient.

Love,

qian :)

The love will never change

2010-09-21T10:42:00.008+01:00

I am all blank on how should i write this.. I didnt know how to start, i dont know what should i exactly write.

It was surely a hard day.

Every corner of the house has her shadow.

The only thing that i want to write down is every bits and memories i have with her, my one and only bitch.

I love calling her bitch and she would still wag her tail and run to my side.

She is my best friend. my closest family member who watch me grow up, accompany me every single time i broke up, i cry and talk to her without second thought to hide anything. She may not be able to talk, but she was my best company. Her fur warms my heart, her kisses makes me smile, her stupidity makes all of us laugh. She was the best listener.

Everyone say, she's so old already.

Yet, she was the healthiest dog for her age.

She runs, she jogs, she ate ALOT. she's a healthy old lady.

Once, i imagine not having her anymore. I burst into tears. Now, she's gone. I realise i cannot talk about her calmly.

I miss every action of her.

What if one day i no longer remember how she look like, how her kisses were, how her fur felt like when i hug her?

I am so scared.

This post, is truly for me to remember her forever.

When she first came to our family, her task was to accompany my grandma who is always at home. The first day, she felt into the fish pond and from that night onwards, she was scared of the pond. We always like to fool around pretending to push her and laughed when she thought she's gonna fall inside again. For two years, she did a great job. She kept my grandma accompanied and brought us alot of laughter.

She's the only dog that i know, with the attitude of her name. -- Princess.

She acted like one.

She never eat all by herself unless we feed her.

She wipes her face every time after her meal.

my room was her special drinking place.

She prefer us to carry her to the basin to let her drink rather than walking all the way to her drinking bowl.

Every evening, it is her time to sit at the swing and relax.

If she wants to get out of the swing, all she would do was bark and wait for us to carry her. She wont jump off by herself.

Her bathing time was the funniest. Have you seen a dog who knows what sauna is? She knows.

She loves to have a basin full of warm water. Not to hot, not to cold. She would walk in there herself, and sit there until the water turns cold. Then, she would call for us to start bathing for her.

You can also never hide food from her. She loves papaya. She loves cheese cake. She loves chocolate. Meat was her favorite.

Dont ever try to hide food from her, she would run to you. She would even risk her life climbing up the stairs to get to you. Her legs are short, as she grew older, we carry her up and down instead of her walking. She would give you the puppy eye and wait for you to feed her.. If you ignore her. or may not realise she is there. Then, she would start barking.

She seem obedient, but at times, she is super arrogant.

Its not easy to call her to come to your side, unless, she's afraid of you, or she wants something from you and she wants to bribe you. If not. most of the time when she is lazy to walk, she would pretend not to hear, by scratching her ears and pretending that she is super lazy.

She never miss every meal we had as well. She would be under the table every meal.

Then, it would be her walking time. In our dialect, we would ask if she wanna go for a walk. Then, she would be waiting at the front door for you to bring her out.

She never wander off by herself, even if the door is open. Unless, there is cats.

She loves loves loves cat. Not dog. The actual reason, we're not sure. She is scared of them and at the same time, she wants to be near them. For dogs. hmm. she can be fierce. I remember there is once, she was pissed at my cousin's dog and she bite the dog's ass. -.- She also rape that dog as well when we are not around. Thats the scenario we imagine off. When we left the house, both dogs were fine. The other dog was well dress and securely tied up so they wont interfere each other. But when we came back, the collars somewhere at the house, the shirt was somewhere lying at the house, Princess was hiding in the room upstairs and the dog hiding at the other room downstairs. Weird right. Its been a mystery.

What did i miss out. I want to remember every moment of her.

Its not easy. To walk into the house without her greeting me.

To not see her fat ass shaking.

To not touch her comfy fur and have her in my arms.

To not play around with her.
She likes us to play around with us. Especially after she bathed.

Her favorite game was to drag the towel and pretend that she was the mop. We drag her.

Its also funny to play hide and seek with her. You can hide somewhere high up, she cant find you for sure. because she aint tall.

If you run with her, everytime she loses, she become less patience. When you finally stop, you can see her being super grumpy.

One thing genius about her. She knows well about microwaves. Every time we wanted to microwave meatballs, she would hundred percent definitely be there. She would appear immediately when the sound ticks.

She would even wait for you by the kitchen whenever you cook. She stick close to you. So you can see her.

She would come in sniffing, making her loud noise telling you that she can smell you eating meat.

Its been 11 years. Having 11 years of her, and now. She left us. The house seems empty. She was the laughter of this family.

She scares everytime when we are travelling back to our hometown. She would wait outside to make sure you will not forget her.

She likes to look at the scenery, but was never tall enough for it. She would lie on your thigh, and wants to to carry her. So she can look outside.

When she left, she shake her tail, and come to every one of us when she barely can walk. She pant two steps after walking, but she never gave up. She shake her tail as if she was saying good bye. She waited for us to pat her back.

What did i still left out?

I want to remember every single bit of my memory with her.

Darling, can you hear me? I want to tell you that i miss you alot.

Everyone pretend to be okay, but every time the bell at your collar ring, you can feel the ache of your heart.

Sam ku misses you alot you know..

We all miss you alot.

To watch tv with us.

To eat with us.

To travel with us.

To fill in every bits and pieces of our life.

The times we slept together in bed.

Rest in peace, my darling Princess.

You are forever inside us. Inside all of us.

I love you.

My bestfriend

My family

My angel

My guardian

Thank you for all the memory.

Thank you for all the laughter.

The most special one,

I sincerely wish, i can have one more chance, to pat you in your head. To smooth your fur.

To have you in my arms again for once?

To see you run to me again for once?

To hit your tummy lightly again to hear you sing?

To scratch your tummy again to see your reflex response again?

To call for your name, like everytime when i pretend not to see you, to see you running towards me and growl at me lightly whenever i piss you off?

Love you,

R.I.P Princess. 19 september 2010.

qian

Titanic 2

2010-09-18T09:36:00.002+01:00

Years ago when i watched titanic, it made me tear. I bet the most memorable one was the "You jump, I jump" scene. :) Its the best way to describe to someone who cannot recall what Titanic is all about. For example, someone like my mum.

Then, in Year 2010, Titanic 2 came out. According to my sis, it was suppose to be shown somewhere near August. But, suprisingly, i heard no news about it. Until someone post the trailer up on FB.

I watched it today. Not in the cinema of course. It was now showing in PPS. But, to cut the long story short, I dont find it so romantic like the first one. There were quite a number of scene that didnt make sense. You'll know when you watch it :) I wanna keep it to not burst anyone's bubble. Personally ask me if you wanna know :D

Overall, its not that bad. But, not so touching and detail like how i expected.

Love,

qian

Will meet again

2010-09-17T13:05:00.000+01:00

Suppose to be heading to the airport to send my batch mates off, but.. due to some reason. The plan fail. Miracle did happen :) but. oh well.. lazy to say much about it here.

But, i do want to tell them :

HAVE A SAFE FLIGHT! we'll meet again pretty soon! :)

I baked some macaroons for them, as a farewell present.

I always like it when i have inspiration, but most of the time, when my life are dead boring and i am fed up of a lot of things, my mind wont work. I am glad it did this time :)

Finally, after various trials. I finally succeed in making macarons. With the help of my mum. I have some phobia already since i fail. With her help, makes me feel secure and confident that it will definitely work :)

Not sure how it taste like, but i hope you guys like it :)

And, last but not least. A recent photo of mine which i like it pretty much :)

Dilemma

2010-09-13T17:17:00.002+01:00

I hate moments when i cannot get my mind straight.

Should i go try for it or i should just rot at home?

As you all know, i am currently enjoying my semester break, but constantly, there is this thought of finding a job.

But,

i dont want to sacrifice the time of sleeping and hanging out with friends and stuffs. :( DILEMMA.

Love,

qian